Boredom

So it's monday morning and I ask
'How was your weekend'
And the person says, ' boring, after studying for a about 5 hours, I had nothing else to do'


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In a separate conversation with someone entirely different:
We are discussing growing old, and wanting to live long after retirement
and the person says
"Well, you don't really wanna live too long after retirement, there is nothing to do'

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My mind is boggled by people who seem to need to be doing stuff. I love doing nothing.
for MY weekends, after studying for five hours, I go to the gym, grocery shopping, cleaning, cooking, and then DO NOTHING. And I love it.
I just sit there enjoying watching the hours pass, I let my brain relax because it's been working so hard all week. And it's the same nothing I do on my holidays. I can do it for weeks on end and after retirement I will do it for months on end. Except in nicer places, cause I would have saved up money and I will be able to go to stupidely exciting places for my retirement and do NOTHING.
A little bit of something but mostly nothing.
I want to meddle in other people's lives, I want to be able to get totally engrossed in the now and not feel compelled to plan for next week/year. And these are the joys I am looking forward to during retirement.. it'll be amazing..only 50 years to go!

Churches

How amazing is it that God loves us all, that God LOVED us BEFORE we could even declare our love, that God LOVED us enough to still come down knowing we would mistreat him and kill him.
God's love = amazing
But what I think is a really cool manifestation of God's love is the different churches. They are soo many different styles of church declaring who Jesus is and God loves us enough to let us worship in whatever way works best for who we are and I don't think he cares.
I honestly don't think he cares whether we sing hymns or rock music, as long as we are declaring his Lordship.
I, myself, am a shouting, jumping, Holy Ghost fire pentecost, and I recently found myself in a hymn church. And I was struck by how awesome it is that those people were also worshipping God, without having to feel uncomfortable in my shouty, jumpy church. That for them spending time with God doesn't have to involve feeling uncomfortable or forcing themselves to behave in a way that is inconsistent with who God made them to be.
It's cool, there is a church for all of us.
Wow, God thought of everything. .

Samsung

HAHAHAHAHA
I laugh, I cried, I mostly laughed

Loneliness

Loneliness is when something absolutely amazing happens.
When I KNOW God is working in my life, because he has just answered a life long prayer.
Or when God has just tickled me pink, done something in my day to make me laugh
and there is absolutely no one to share it with.
They are there, but they won't get it, they won't really share in my joy, not even for any negative reasons, but they just won't get it.
Loneliness is knowing that the people around you are people you can complain with (the language of whining is pretty darn universal), but you can't rejoice with because they just won't understand the things that bring you utter joy.
Either way, I'm pretty darn happy, so it's alright.
And if I am honest, the poeple who will understand and share my joy do exist, they are just far away. And life has just changed so that I have to call them or email them to share my news, and not just show up at their door, but there are still there. And for that I thank God.

Racism?

I've always been way too slow to be insulted by racism.
I assume people are being nice, and if people hate me they hate me because of some obnoxious quality I have. So I always hear about someone being racist in retrospect, or consider it after the fact.
This is good, it means I never get into unnecessary arguments that would probably only serve to feed whatever hatred they had for my race already.

So I am walking in my burb.
And I white guy looks at me and says
"They are africans in this burb now?"
And I laugh, becuase I took it as just casual conversation
" We've been here for a long time"
(For the record: NO, I am feeling so lonely and I poune on every slightly dark person I find, becuase there are BARELY in black people in this burb. But I was still walking past him and making casual conversation)
"Taking over the place" He says.
And I was passed him at this point. But as I was walking away, I realised I assumed it was casual conversation.
BUT REALLY, this isn't the kind of thing, you say to strangers as casual conversation.
This is closest I have been to going up to someone and saying, "Would you please clarify your point"
That's the kind of racism you'll find this country, people saying stupid things, and I am almost 80% sure it's not related to any particular hatred for my race, but to just plane old ignorance that I probably don't want to have a conversation about how "we're taking over"

Ugh
For the record, we are only here, because it's so hard to survive in our own countries, because we have bad leadership (mostly because you guys interfere in our leadership) and generate hoops for our leaders to jump through that derails them from their goals.
It's hard to live in our own countries because we are still building and we are still building because some light skinned idiot decided we were nothing but animals and destroyed our societies.


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I know where he works...

Raising money

<p>There once was a little boy, who lived in Zambia. He was the youngest of four but tragedy struck while he was in primary school.<br>
He lost both his parents (rumour has it, it may have been AIDS).<br>
He is loved because he is uncomplicated, spending time with him is peaceful and unstressful. But most importantly he is ridiculously Hard working.
In the time we have known him he seems to have responded to life and all its unpleasantness with study. He seems to understand that education is his way out.
This year he graduates grade twelve. We are optimistic he will get into university and get a bursary because of his life circumstances.
However, he has no idea what to do at uni. He has not been exposed to many options and there has been an idea floating around to sponsor him to take a trip, see a tiny bit of the world, and spend some time shadowing some of the careers he has considered.
But ultimately the question I'm asking myself is how can I raise 10000 dollars by the end of this year (although even half of that would be enough)?
How do I raise money when I have to study and fund my own existence?

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Someone just came up to me and said "how are doing, ma'am"
I don't think I like being a ma'am.